Generally, socially acceptable, to let people know the reason as to why I would take time off and cancel meetings while still staying active at work through pushing code. Like many Autistic Individuals, I've been reprimanded for my behavior and word selection. It had taken a mental toll on me over the years until my naturally inquisitive nature took over. Through considering multiple facets of lexical and behavioral representation of myself, I've managed to pin down some behaviors which occur in myself that lead to Nuero-typical Hypoxia

When I'm at a party, talking with someone for a really long time sharing a lot of information. I was taught how to do this by other Neuro-divergent individuals who were also experiencing social acclimation issues into a group of people. As I leveled-up my self-awareness, I began to notice what I spoke about, didn't have any emotional or vocational relevance to my world view and I was simply syndicating information from someone who made me feel a particular way. This too, was a learned behavior due to my lack of continuity in relationships with people

I like to think most autistic children negatively affected by ABA therapy, like I was. Developed a world view which was much more stark than the presentation of struggles provided by their peers. Rather than being taught how to connect with my peers through empathy, I was taught how not to repeat mistakes through criticism and the result of it was a hotchpotch of life lessons which would continue to dominate my internal governance until I built something better. As the words from ABA therapy faded, the emotional state and trauma remained.. dormant to be reawakened by someone passing by in casual conversation

Compassion fatigue, when I just gave to many shits about another person or something else and I couldn't self-regulate myself into a normal state of governance afterwards. This was a double bladed sword for me to fall onto as my internal governance was cultivated by parents ashamed of my behavior without feeling content in their own life lessons from their childhood. It's common in psychology to declare that parent(s) have messed up the development of a child.. but what about the parents? It's convenient to point to your parent(s) and say they don't know what their doing or what they did; and at which point do you take on the responsibility of their failure and make it your own to correct?

Nuero-typicals in general, just talking with them. Takes its toll, and I'm sorry.. but there is a bio-ware limit to my presentation of Nuero-typical language patterns. On the flip side, I could talk for hours with someone who is autistic and not feel any sort of fatigue.. but that too is a double bladed sword for me to fall onto because I have to eventually switch back to Nuero-typical language patterns

There is no socially acceptable way to describe this, yet. There is presentation for me to consider and simply dumping my information on people and hoping they organize my information in a meaningful way that benefits me is expecting to much. Therefore I resolve to isolate myself for a couple days as I recuperate and work through thought-product relative to my life experience and produce language meant to inspire my peers to grow out of these behaviors